Thursday, October 25, 2012

Final Countdown

I can't believe there are only 2 days, 18 hours and 42 minutes before I run my first marathon. And I can't believe I may be running it in this...



I am hearing different reports about the wind and rain, but I'm trying to remain optimistic and not let it get the best of me! It's already been a long road to get here, punctuated by ass-loads of drama over the past several weeks that has knocked some of the wind out of my sails. My last long runs (18, 12, 20, 12, 6-shortened-from-8) have all gone well. I am feeling good about the race. Just worn down by life. However, I am working on embracing this: Illegitimi non carborundum

Confession: I have only run once this week, and it was just around the block. There has been no chomping at the bit nervous energy happening for me during this taper. Just a lot of overwhelm-induced tiredness/laziness and some major Twizzler pull 'n peel cravings. They are so yummy and I may or may not have had a few for breakfast today!
A few of these babies are definitely going in my fuel belt on race day...

I am hoping planning to get out for a short run this evening, if for no other reason than to try and rid myself of this horribly bloated, roly-poly feeling I've had for a week. I do not dare step on the scale! I know, I know, gaining a few pounds during taper is not unusual, but it still sucks!

Enough of the boo hoo hoo. Thus far, training for my first marathon has been an amazing experience. Every week I was amazed that I was able to push my body and mind further. I logged miles with some awesome ladies - old friends and new. I met my fundraising goal. I faced some fears head on and overcame them. I had fun!

[ Aside: Three days before my fundraising deadline, I received an anonymous donation, without which I would not have reached my goal. I have no idea who this came from! If that person somehow finds this and reads it, thank you, thank you, thank you. You are an angel and I'm not sure my whiney self deserves your generosity, but I am inspired to live up to it. I wish I knew who you were, but know that I will be thinking of you as I run and I will be paying it forward in the future! ]

I am hydrating and carb loading like it's my job.

Tonight I will be making my list and checking it twice (or thrice), packing and overpacking, and trying to get a good night's sleep. 

Tomorrow I will be riding to DC with friends (yay, no driving for me!). The kiddos will be riding up with my parents. This will be the first race they will be able to watch me finish since my very first 5k two years ago, so I am super extra pumped up!

In a little over 72 hours I will be a marathoner.

Sometimes I need to kick myself in the ass as a reminder, but LIFE IS GOOD.




Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Now You See Me, Now You Don't

I have been hunkered down the past few weeks, trying to manage LIFE. Last week I had a few bad days at the beginning of the week, only one run on Thursday and then my 20-miler on Saturday (I survived!). I am really looking forward to my marathon but right now am very anxious and disappointed about the fundraising side of things. I really didn't want this to be weighing on my mind the last few weeks before the marathon, but it is what it is...

I guess I'll come out of hiding sooner or later.